About

A poem installation.

Text, video, design: J.P. Sipilä
Music: Machinefabriek, Samuli Sailo, Kai Engel
2014

www.jpsipila.com

“It is beautiful, pure, and, as with every good book or record, it invites your return.”

– Swoon’s View, Awkword Paper Cut

With nothing in it,
it may in fact,
mean something after all.

Sometimes I see good colours and experience nice things.

Sometimes I see good colours and experience nice things.

Sometimes I see good colours and experience nice things.

 

I hear voices but they never say anything constructive.

 

They were kind to me when no one else was.

 

Maybe it’s a feeling you are being saved.

The
childhood
propaganda
that

Maybe
it’s
a feeling
you
are
being
saved
by
this
person
and
without
them
to
save
you,
you’d
struggle
to
go
on?

Maybe
I have nothing to say.
I need the right thing said at the right time.

 

I am left with the propaganda that destroyed my childhood.

“Is this going up?”

30

Why do people always look up in here?
We’re going down. I am looking down.

29

It’s a wish. Don’t they realise tha…
“Excuse me.”
“Yeah.”

28

27

26

25

The silence. This is a long ride.
They don’t know who they are.
This is a long ride.
Nobody is looking down.
I am not afraid

24

23

22

21

I think we all know by now.

20

19

18

17

16

If I close my eyes they all disappear.
It feels weird.

15

14

“Fourteen, please.”
Now they’re back. Everybody is here again.
This is how it goes.
That girl is looking down.
She knows where we are going.
She’s beautiful.

13

12

11

10

09

“Did you hear the news?”
No small talk now, please.
I have enough hard time breathing.
Should I say something?
Something about our destination?
About space? About astronauts?
How they cannot breathe outside?

08

Nobody is interested about the news.
I think we all know by now.
Know where this is going.
Everybody should know. The light is on.
The number shines on the wall.
It’s not even a number, it’s a letter.

07

06

I was not expecting this. We are going up. We are climbing. Is this what happens when we reach the bottom?

05

04

All is upside down. It’s a mirror.
Looking at us.
Seeing us here.
In beautiful details.

03

02

01

00

I am the only one here.
They all left when we reached the bottom.
I don’t blame a whole generation for their actions.

 

They didn’t want to join this ride with me.

It’s a reflection. I am at the bottom.

?

?

I am going to stop breathing.
I get where I feel like.

?

?

I always smile. I always make others laugh and happy.

?

But then again, that’s just the way I see it.

 

 

 

 

 

“Is this going up?”

She
gave me
a handshake.

Full of laughter.

Every time I take a look at the clock

I see an hour has gone by.

They are all kind to me.

When they want me to smile.

My reality and thinking

get distorted.

The propaganda

that destroyed my childhood.

I
know
it
by
now.

I am not to blame.

I do that again and again.

I just need to become me again.

Please…

Protect me.

then I did.
But it didn’t change anything.

 

 

A tourist.

then I didn’t.
But it didn’t change anything.

 

 

A tourist.

It’s snowing in Athína.

This is going up.
We’re still doing the same things.
All this will grow on you.

Nature will do it for us.

Something
good was
about to
happen.

Those people who think are wrong.
Everything is worse and we’re still doing the same things.

You know nothing about it
unless it is taught to you.

 

You know nothing about it
unless it is taught to you.

You know nothing about it
unless it is taught to you.

I believed because I didn’t realize that not believing was even possible.

Even thought
I still find
myself
kind of
talking
about it.

Self will is probably an illusion.
I’d call it multiple choice will rather than free will.

Everything is worse and we’re still doing the same things.

They don’t exact immediate punishment on the stupid.

This is my childhood.
Will you let me grow old?

This is all in your head.
This is all your propaganda.

I will
grow
again.

This is a total shutdown.
Just to save us.

Please say something nice.

Since everything
that happened
I keep walking
around
nonstop.

I think this is the primal survival instinct.
This evokes memories of better times
and makes me feel like I want to go on.

Every
time
I
take
a
look
at
the
clock
I
see
an
hour
has
gone
by.

I
want to
teach you
to deal
with
the panic.

A feeling
I am being
saved.

A feeling
I am being
saved.

It’s your
propaganda.

It’s your
propaganda.

It’s your
propaganda.

To
make
me
smile.

To
make
me
grow.

And
it
may
in
fact
mean
something
after
all.

Sleight of Tree

a poem installation by J.P. Sipilä

 

Video #1
“Out of the Forest”
a filmpoem
duration 2’56
video & poem by J.P. Sipilä
music by Machinefabriek

 

Video #2
”The Tourist”
a filmpoem
duration 2’50
video & poem by J.P. Sipilä
music by Samuli Sailo

 

Video #3
“Lost”
a filmpoem
duration 1’25
video&poem by J.P. Sipilä
music by Kai Engel

 

2014
www.jpsipila.com